I Never Meant It To Be Like This

by Cumulus

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1.
The sun it was so red tonight, as the sky decided to turn out the lights, and it carried you and me into the night. We walked through streets that had no names, but we knew our own so it was all okay. Nothing remains nameless for too long. Music spun in through our ears, escaping our lips and bringing back years where you and I we both felt so young. You told me that you were tired of dreams, that seemed to be ripped out of magazines. You wanted something beautiful, that you could call your own. We all want something beautiful that we can call our own. Do you remember when young meant, invincible, invincible Do you remember when young meant, invincible, invincible (oh oh)
2.
Hey Love 03:37
Said you were so lonely, I’ll make you less lonely, come and get un-lonely with me. I know these city lights can start to eat you up inside- don’t be afraid to talk to me. Tired of standing in place, come over to my place, you can come and dance with me. We can share our dreams and how life doesn’t seem to be what we thought it would be. But hey love don’t you sneak up on me, you know how I feel when I don’t see you coming. Hey love don’t you sneak up on me, every time I catch my breath, you just got me running. (oh oh) Said you were so lonely, I’ll make you less lonely, come and get un-lonely with me. I know these city lights can start to eat you up inside- don’t be afraid to talk to me.
3.
Middle 05:15
I sing this song because you sang it for me, standing on the stage with your heart on your sleeve. You said, "We all sing this to belong, we all want this to be our song." If you think the world is against you, you're fighting a losing fight, because you can't even see that you've got people on your side. Why don't you come along? Why don't you get in the middle? Why don't you come along? Why don't you get in the middle. We can talk about your loss of faith, or the love you had that got away, talk about the moments you feel small... talk about the moments that you could not feel at all. Why don't you come along? Why don't you get in the middle? Why don't you come along? Why don't you get in the middle. Why don't you come along? Why don't you get in the middle? Why don't you come along? Why don't you get in the middle.
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Ocean 03:33
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Wanderlust 04:57
And I will watch you make the same mistakes that I did. I never meant it to be like this, I never meant it to be like this. You cannot trust a man who don't know- he don't know how to be alone. He does not know how to be alone. He will wander from bed, to bed, until he makes your head his home. Until he makes your head his home. So here is a coat of armor, don't let anybody in. Right now love is a game that you do not want to win. If you don't believe me, go and see it for yourself- there is always room for more on the heart collectors shelf. They will take you away, they will take you away, they will take you. they will take you. So when you feel the cold, and you see the fog you'll know- that you are still breathing- your heart it keeps on beating. Adjust your eyes to see in the dark. We are alone in this together, alone is not forever.
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7.
Little Ghost 03:08
Little ghost I hear you, you're laughing in my tracks. Like sunshine in the winter, I don't know when you'll come back. Little ghost I see you, when I go to sleep. I pull the sheets over my eyes and still you won't leave me. Little ghost I've seen you, stealing my shadow, so you can walk behind. All I need is the cold breeze, to know that you're not mine. You're not mine. But little ghost don't go home, little ghost don't leave. If you are a memory, I want you here with me. I'll keep you in my pocket with the pieces of my heart, because that is what I know you are. I'll keep you in my pocket with the pieces of my heart, because that is what I know you are.
8.
I see you falling, we're inches apart. There are miles in between us, I still feel your heart. Last night your lips touched mine like a strawberry, touches the ground, when it gets too heavy. When did this began to get so heavy? You and me we were like morning coffee. We'd drink each other up and put more sugar in the cup. Sleep it off until the morning, I'll be okay in the morning, when the sun rises. when the sun rises- to wake me up from this slumber that we have been under. I don't mean to be a problem I just, wanna see your face in the morning. I wanna feel your hand against my cheek, see you smiling back at me, but I don't want to be a problem I just, wanna see your face in the morning.
9.
Fiction 05:46
I'll keep you a fiction, because fiction don't get old. I will memorize, the stories that you sold. Like when you said that we would go- pack our bags and go to Mexico. I'll never believe anything you say, I'll keep you a fiction it won't matter anyways. I'll keep you a fiction so I can put you down. Leave you on the shelf, I'll be the one to leave you now. I'll keep you a fiction, keep you a fiction.
10.
Going back to the town where we met, images of you dancing in my head, I remember swimming in the dark. You took my hand we dove right in, unafraid of anything, getting lost in trees and waves- your kiss hit like a hurricane. All of these young loves, how they burn us. All of these young loves, how we learn loss. They called us young love, so I can't blame us, for thinking young love could sustain us. Singing long into the night, your fingers wrapped in mine so tight. You told me that you doubt the world, but felt so sure I'd be your girl. You came to me crying, looking for peace. I tried to give you all that you need. I guess this was the ending we could see and never speak. All of these young loves, how they burn us. All of these young loves, how we learn loss. They called us young love, so I can't blame us, for thinking young love could sustain us. Now I call you on the phone and I hear silence on the end. It's not the first time in feeling alone in the arms of my best friend. I still think about you and you know I want the best. All I ever wanted for you was happiness. and all of these young loves, how they burn us. All of these young loves, how we learn loss. They called us young love, so I can't blame us, for thinking young love could sustain us.

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Debut album on Trans-Records

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released October 1, 2013

Words by Alexandra Niedzialkowski
Music by Cumulus
Recorded and Engineered by Nicholas Wilbur
Mixed by Sam Winston
Additional Production on "Hey Love" by Ryan Sprute
Recorded at the 'Unknown' in Anacortes, WA
Mastered by TW Walsh
Artwork by Danielle Burton
Layout by MR Dellinger

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Cumulus Seattle, Washington

Cumulus is the indie pop songwriting project of Alexandra Niedzialkowski. Cumulus's music is filled to the brim with nostalgia and vulnerability, resulting in a dreamy and confessional catalog from a writer that can't help but analyze her world in the form of a song.

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